Now we know that it's us versus the world now.
Me and you against the world now.
Look up there in the sky now.
See those stars well they're shining just for us.

It has just been "Us" for nearly 2 months now and I will be honest here it doesn't feel much different for me. I keep having people asking me how I am and how I am getting on and I am honestly fine but I owe a lot of that to Thomas he is what keeps me going. I am sure that if he wasn't with me I would have pretty much given up and I would be a crying mess because I have been there before. Thomas is the reason I have a smile on my face and he is the reason I am being positive about our future. 

Personally I am getting on great. I am just doing what I have been doing for a long time now. The big thing for me will be dealing with my finances and getting myself sorted in that way as that was something David always dealt with and I just sorted out money for my car and organising money for the weekly food shop. Now I have to organise paying all of the other household bills myself. I am sure I will get there and I will have everything organised for us and I will be completely independent. 

Of course there are times when I get lonely when Thomas goes to bed and I have always felt like that but I think the fact that I am actually single now it is as if that feeling is increased. I have found myself going to bed around 9pm just because I am fed up of my own company. Perhaps I need to get another hobby so any suggestions are welcome.
Today I am sharing with you an infographic which I found pretty interesting it is all about how the end of a relationship or having your heart broken can actually affect you. Having recently gone through a break up myself I can kinda relate to some of the stats on the infographic but I don't think I actually felt heart break when my relationship ended, I think because I had Thomas around keeping me smiling it kinda numbed what was happening so I didn't feel heartbroken at all really.

You may not remember but back in August I did a series on my blog where I blogged everyday of the month and used different prompts and one of those was A quote to live by and I said back then that this quote means a lot to me and it is a quote that gets me through tough times. Little did I know there was a crappy time just around the corner.

I also said that I would probably get this as my next tattoo to remind me that yes we do all have crappy times in our life but it will pass, we will get through it and we will definitely come through it stronger. The other week I was feeling all strong and independent woman like and thought I'm going to get a new tattoo why the heck not. The first thing that come in to my mind was this saying.

I know the world and their mum probably have this quote tattooed somewhere on their person and it isn't very unique but I love it. It is there sitting on my shoulder to remind me that whatever happens, whatever life throws at me I will get through. I will be a stronger person because of it and I will come out of everything with a smile on my face.

This also means I can tick off one of my resolutions for 2014 which was to get a new tattoo so it's win win.

Do you have a quote or saying that you live by?
Being A single mum is something that I never wanted to be, I don't think that anybody does. It's something that I never thought I would be. Like so many other women I thought I had my perfect little family a mum, a dad and a child it was all I ever wanted and I thought that was it now for my life. I never expected that I would be starting 2014 as a single mum, I never thought that I would be heading towards a divorce at 24. I often sit and think what has my life become, why has it suddenly gone so wrong, what did I do that was so bad that I couldn't make my marriage work.

Being a young single mum comes with quite a stigma you know what I mean the "Vicky Pollard" type who lives on a council estate with no job and has a handful of children by a handful of men, men who are no longer around. I would imagine if you asked people from older generations what they think of when they think of single mums they would say the above or silly young girls who like to sleep around.

The reality is this isn't the case at all. Like one of my friends said Thomas isn't the worlds worst hangover, Thomas is the result of two people who loved each other, two people who were married and thought they would be spending their lives together. If this hadn't of been the case I wouldn't of had a baby in the first place. It has happened though I have a child and a failed marriage and as a result I am a single mum.

I really hate the term single mum because yes I do think people look down their nose at you and people will already make their mind up about you before actually getting to know you or hearing your story. I would like to think of myself as an independent mum not your Vicky Pollard type single mum. I have been pretty much raising Thomas on my own for a long time and I know I am doing a good job and I am damn proud of myself for that.

I work and I have worked since I left college at 18 the only time I haven't worked was when I was on maternity leave but as soon as that was finished I had to go back to work part time because we simply could afford me to not work but I also like working I like having my own money in my pocket I would never of liked to keep asking David for pocket money, I like to have my own independence. I made the decision to go full time again originally because I wanted to save a deposit to buy a house but now it is more because I will need the extra money even more so than before. I don't want to have to rely on hand outs to get by. Eventually I still want to buy my own house one day and I am damn sure I will get there no matter what it takes. I want to provide a stable home for Thomas. I want him to still have everything he wants and needs I never want him to miss out on anything and I will do it.

I want my family to still be proud of me. I want Thomas to grow up and be proud of his mum I want him to see how hard I have worked for us both. I want him to grow up knowing that I have tried my absolute best to make his life as good as I possibly can. I also want to be proud of myself, yes my life is a mess at the minute but I know deep down that whatever my future brings I will get to where I want to be in my life. I want to be able look back on 2014 and think yeah it started off shit but I turned it around I got to where I wanted to be.
I saw this tag on quite a few blogs so thought it was a nice thing to fill in. I tag every mummy.

1. Are you a Stay at Home Mum, or a Working Mum?
I am a working mum and I have recently started working full time again 
after a year of being part time.
2. Would you have it any other way?
I don't think I would. I had a year of being part time and adored the extra time I 
had with Thomas but being full time again was the right decision for me and 
I know Thomas and I will both benefit a lot more in the future
if I get my career sorted. Plus Thomas loves nursery so that makes it a lot easier for me.

3. Do you co-sleep?
We use to when Thomas was having a bad time with his sleep and it got to the 
point where he was coming in my bed all the time but that stopped quite a while
ago. Now he is back to being a great sleeper but when he has the 
occasional bad night I bring him in my bed just means we both get more sleep.
4. What is your one must-have item for your baby?
I copied the questions from Kerry at Oh So Amelia and her her answer was 
their baby swing and I must agree with that. It was great when Thomas was
a newborn.
5. How many kids do you plan on having?
I always wanted 2 and was planning on having another soon but now me and David
split I can't see me having another baby for a long, long time.
6. Date night? How many nights per month?
Shall I just write N/A for this haha
7. Your childs favourite show?
Peppa Pig, Thomas loves it he is forever asking to watch it and keeps saying 
Peppa pig and snorts.

8. Name one thing you bought before you had your baby and never ended up using?
I think we pretty much give everything a go but there were lots I didn't use for
long because they ended up being pretty useless.
9. Your child’s favourite food?
Thomas changes his mind as quick as the wind with what food he likes and what
he doesn't but he has always loved bananas.
10. How many cars does your family have?
Just one a Citroen Picasso, we got that as we were wanting to expand
our family but as that wont be happening now it is a little
too big but I do really like the car surprisingly.
11. Weight gain before pregnancy, during and after and now?
I gained loads perhaps around the 3stone mark, Thankfully I did lose it all.
12. Dream holiday with your kids?
 I think the obvious answer is Disney Land, I will probably take Thomas when he is older
I had better start saving now.
13. Dream holiday without your kids?
 I would love a long girly weekend somewhere hot and sunny.
Hopefully I will be going on a mini break with one of my friends
later on in the year.
14. How has your life changed since your baby has been born?
More than I could have imagined. I have learnt what the real meaning of love is
I now always put somebody else first and put their needs before my own.
I am now also single again so that is definitely another change.

15. Finish the sentence: 'It makes my heart melt to see … '
Thomas playing when he goes in to his own little world
when playing with his cars, I love to see his brain ticking.
I also love to see how his face lights up when he sees his Grandad.
16. Where do you shop for your kids?
Where ever really, I don't really spend lots of money on his clothes as he 
grows out of them so quick. I get them mostly from Tesco, Primark, Matalan and Next
17. Favourite makeup and skincare products?
Far too many to name! My ultimate favourite at the moment is my 
Benefit Boi-ing concealer.
18. Huggies or Pampers?
Neither I have never liked Huggies and Pampers are far too expensive.
I love Tesco and Aldi own brand, never have problems with them.

19. Have you always wanted kids?
Yes, I have always wanted to become a mum but having Thomas had made the 
whole experience so perfect.
20. Best part about being a mum?
All of it, I love everything even when Thomas is being a right little monkey I know that when he has finished his tantrum he will be back to being my lovely little boy. 
I love when I wake him in the morning and he gives me a smile as though to say I've missed you mummy.
I love when he gives me kisses and cuddles without asking
I love when he runs over to me when I pick him up from nursery
I just love everything.

1. My dad said Thomas would be a boy all the way through my pregnancy so from the start I knew he would be a boy
2. Thomas was the only boys name me and his dad both liked
3. If he was going to be a girl his name would have been Holly or Isabelle
4. I had a beautiful easy pregnancy with Thomas
5. In fact it was too easy and he didnt want to come out and was delivered by csection nearly 15days late
6. Thomas is the first and only grandson and great grandson and is totally adored.
7. Thomas has been a mummys boy since day one.
8. Thomas HATES getting changed or having his nappy done.
9. Thomas has terrible tantrums and headbutts the floor.
10. Thomas was born 2 years to the day i got engaged to his dad.
11. Thomas's favourite thing at the moment is cars.
12. Thomas loves looking at books and will sit for ages quietly.
13. We co-slept quite a lot and still do if he has a bad night.
14. Thomas is generally a good eater but has fussy days
15. Ive lost count of his teeth because i never notice them come through.
16. Thomas took his first steps the week before his first birthday.
17. Thomas has recently started trying to say love yoi.
18. Thomas goes to nursery and his best friend is charlie
19. Thomas loves tickle time
20. Thomas and i have such a special strong bond and it gets stronger everyday now its just the two of us